How can it already be five years since we lost Paige? In so many ways it feels like just yesterday that she was here and in others it seems a lifetime. Someone recently asked me if it gets better. No, not really. I think you just learn to live with it better. You have to. What other choice is there? I think that it's easier to keep busy and I just avoid the things that make me miss her too much. That's why I was kind of glad that I was getting sick yesterday and didn't have to go to church. It is harder to be strong when people are being really nice and remembering her. Not that I don't want them to remember her, but at certain times, I just can't take it. I try to be strong and I really don't like people to see me cry. I'm an ugly crier. So it's just easier to avoid. So, on the anniversary of her death and on her birthday I hide and try not to answer the phone. I know it's the cowardly way out, but it's only twice a year. So, sue me.
Monday, November 9, 2009
Monday, October 5, 2009
10 weeks and still going
I have been walking with Team in Training for 10 weeks now. I can't believe it. In such a short time, I have accomplished so much. More than I ever thought I could do, but I have so far to go.
Ten weeks ago I barely made our first 3 miles. I had never done anything like this before. When I was talking to a friend about a month before I started we both agreed that we would never make it all the way around the Rose Bowl. That was where we had our first training. It was to walk all the way around the Rose Bowl. I was so scared, but with the help of my team I made it and I wasn't the last one. Now, walking around the Rose Bowl seems like a piece of cake.
Two weeks ago I had my longest walk, 9 miles!!! I really didn't think that I could make it at all. Most of the path that we took was on sandy, rocky trails and at one point there is the steepest hill. Again, thanks to one of my coaches, I made it. I did find out that I am a little bit of a drama queen. When I got to the top of the hill, I sat down at the water station and declared, "I'm going to die!" When they offered to drive me back I told them no way, I could do it the rest of the way, the hard part was over. I did it and once again, I wasn't the last one!! I walked 9 miles. I was exhausted and sore, but I did it and I am still so proud of myself.
This last week we were to walk 10 miles. I was doing really well. I knew that I could make it. The first 7 miles were on the sandy, rocky trails and the last 3 were around the Rose Bowl (the easy part). As I neared the end of the trails I saw a friend ahead of me and thought that if I walked a little faster I could catch up with her. I did. I was so happy that after 6ish miles, I could put forth a little speed and catch up with someone. Well, it wasn't a good decision because that little burst of speed caused me to pull a muscle in my thigh and I wasn't able to complete the miles. I was so psyched to do the entire 10, but NO. I guess 7 isn't too bad, but 10 is really cool. I guess I will just have to wait awhile. I am starting to believe that I will actually be able to complete the 13.1 miles needed for my half marathon in January.
Ten weeks ago I barely made our first 3 miles. I had never done anything like this before. When I was talking to a friend about a month before I started we both agreed that we would never make it all the way around the Rose Bowl. That was where we had our first training. It was to walk all the way around the Rose Bowl. I was so scared, but with the help of my team I made it and I wasn't the last one. Now, walking around the Rose Bowl seems like a piece of cake.
Two weeks ago I had my longest walk, 9 miles!!! I really didn't think that I could make it at all. Most of the path that we took was on sandy, rocky trails and at one point there is the steepest hill. Again, thanks to one of my coaches, I made it. I did find out that I am a little bit of a drama queen. When I got to the top of the hill, I sat down at the water station and declared, "I'm going to die!" When they offered to drive me back I told them no way, I could do it the rest of the way, the hard part was over. I did it and once again, I wasn't the last one!! I walked 9 miles. I was exhausted and sore, but I did it and I am still so proud of myself.
This last week we were to walk 10 miles. I was doing really well. I knew that I could make it. The first 7 miles were on the sandy, rocky trails and the last 3 were around the Rose Bowl (the easy part). As I neared the end of the trails I saw a friend ahead of me and thought that if I walked a little faster I could catch up with her. I did. I was so happy that after 6ish miles, I could put forth a little speed and catch up with someone. Well, it wasn't a good decision because that little burst of speed caused me to pull a muscle in my thigh and I wasn't able to complete the miles. I was so psyched to do the entire 10, but NO. I guess 7 isn't too bad, but 10 is really cool. I guess I will just have to wait awhile. I am starting to believe that I will actually be able to complete the 13.1 miles needed for my half marathon in January.
Monday, July 27, 2009
What have I gotten myself into? I think I must be having a midlife crisis or something, but I have signed up with the Leukemia/Lymphoma Society to walk a half marathon (13.1 miles) in January.
Today was my first day of training. The first "real" training starts on Aug. 1, but this week we have to walk everyday to get ready. So, today I had to walk for 50 minutes. It sounded like a long time to me. I don't think that I've ever just walked for that long, except maybe a Disneyland. I went to the Rose Bowl to walk but I was afraid that I couldn't make it all the way around in that time. It's 3 miles around. I decided to walk 25 min. and then turn around and walk back. Then I was going to drive around and see how many miles I walked. I felt good that I made it the whole time, but I didn't remember where I was when I turned around so I couldn't find out how many miles it was. I think it may have been close to half way around. I walk 50 min. again on Thursday so I will try to see how far I can get then. I will feel good if I can walk the whole way around in 50 min. The rest of the week I will be walking only 30 minutes.
It's a good thing that the event is 6 months away because there is no way I would be able to make it now. Hopefully, it will become easier each time I walk. I was a little bored and I'm glad for my itouch so that I could listen to some good music. I wonder if I could download a book and listen to that as I walk? I am looking forward to Saturday and walking with a bunch of people. Things are always more fun when you do them with someone else.
Today was my first day of training. The first "real" training starts on Aug. 1, but this week we have to walk everyday to get ready. So, today I had to walk for 50 minutes. It sounded like a long time to me. I don't think that I've ever just walked for that long, except maybe a Disneyland. I went to the Rose Bowl to walk but I was afraid that I couldn't make it all the way around in that time. It's 3 miles around. I decided to walk 25 min. and then turn around and walk back. Then I was going to drive around and see how many miles I walked. I felt good that I made it the whole time, but I didn't remember where I was when I turned around so I couldn't find out how many miles it was. I think it may have been close to half way around. I walk 50 min. again on Thursday so I will try to see how far I can get then. I will feel good if I can walk the whole way around in 50 min. The rest of the week I will be walking only 30 minutes.
It's a good thing that the event is 6 months away because there is no way I would be able to make it now. Hopefully, it will become easier each time I walk. I was a little bored and I'm glad for my itouch so that I could listen to some good music. I wonder if I could download a book and listen to that as I walk? I am looking forward to Saturday and walking with a bunch of people. Things are always more fun when you do them with someone else.
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)
